I've known Keri for twelve years. I have a lot of really amazing people in my life. But I know who to turn to when things get really rough. And Keri is always number one. This is because her tactic is complete honesty, which is what I almost always need.
I've been through some pretty tough stuff, especially in the last three years. Dark subject matter that was (and sometimes still is) all-consuming and downright depressing. I've always felt older than a lot of my friends, because I feel like I've flown through a lot of life's sad, but inevitable, milestones already. And I feel alone a lot because of that, like my own little island. I can sense that a lot of my friends don't know what to say to me over some of these things, and they get uncomfortable. So I try not to talk about it, or I keep it lighter than what I really feel. I don't blame them. I just know it's hard for them to understand what it's like to be on my little piece of the world right now.
But with Keri, I've hit friend gold. Because even though she also doesn't completely understand, she's the first to admit that. She's completely honest, and instead of constantly trying to look at the positive for me when I'm ranting and crying and pissed at life, she will be the first one to say, "I don't know what to tell you."
But I love that she admits that. Because really, when someone is so depressed and angry about things out of their control, they don't really want someone telling them to look on the bright side. At that moment, the "bright side" is that they aren't completely suicidal... yet. And that's about it. I love that Keri acknowledges that and then just listens. Which is all anyone really ever wants, anyway.
So today, I'm thankful for Keri's awesome listening skills. And for the fact that she keeps listening, even after my many emotional relapses. Thanks. I love you.
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